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Car: registered, inspected, fixed.
Housing: Found
Finances: Coming together
Job: In the process of being hunted for.
Road trip companion: Done and done (Yay, Lauren!! :) )


Everything is moving so fast…

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"And if—by some stroke of luck not even your mother could predict—you find a man who meets these qualifications, or even if he doesn’t meet all of them but you’ve decided he’s an Okay Egg, love him with all your heart. Make him dinner and read his books and pull him close to your beating chest. Put your running sneakers away. Learn how it feels to feel at peace. Then let yourself imagine it: first the porch with the splintered floorboards and then the dog everyone thinks is stupid, and then the Sunday mornings spent in the sunny living room that is lined with vintage bookshelves, texts of all different colors, the photo albums of your life—like still-frames from a movie—and allow yourself to see it: those doe-eyed, eclectic children, standing just before those bookshelves, running their fingers over the smooth, flat binding, and see it as it happens: how you bend down until you meet their level, how their faces are aligned with yours, and how you look at them and say, It will take a lot of time, say, it will take an awful lot of failure, but don’t you think—for just one second—you didn’t deserve this from the start."
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(Source: rebekahleanne, via jennmolloy)

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typographicverses:

"No one engaged in warfare entangles himself with the affairs of this life, that he may please Him who enlisted him as a soldier." 2 Timothy 2:4. Designed by David Hailes (@davehailes).

typographicverses:

"No one engaged in warfare entangles himself with the affairs of this life, that he may please Him who enlisted him as a soldier." 2 Timothy 2:4. Designed by David Hailes (@davehailes).

Speak life, reap life.

Speak death, reap death.

Words carry power.

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And what could prove that one is back on the world of tumblr than a shameless selfie?

And what could prove that one is back on the world of tumblr than a shameless selfie?

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1 Thessalonians 5:16-18.

(Source: typographicverses)

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"Send me anywhere, only go with me. Lay any burden on me, only sustain me."
David Livingstone (via gospelquotes)
Since it’s been about a year…

…since I have written on here, and since my life can’t stay consistent in any way except the good God that I serve, then here are the highlights:

—I spent an incredible year being a youth leader to the most wonderful group of kids I’ve ever met. Truly, they have the biggest hearts of any individuals I’ve ever met, and gave me more love than anyone ever has. I had the privilege of teaching them about Jesus, about His love, grace, mercy, and in turn they taught me how to love myself. Each and every single one of them have shaped me more than they could ever recognize. Leaving the youth group was, by far, the most difficult thing I’ve ever undergone, as my heart broke daily due to the decision, with a peace creeping in months later in recognizing the necessity of the decision. The solace I have is that I didn’t teach those kids to love me, to love the other leaders, but rather to love God—and His hands are more capable of caring for them than mine ever could.

—Back in February, I began working with an evangelist’s ministry, the same evangelist who first spoke into my life a year prior and God used to change the selfish course of life I was on. With Miracle Word Ministries, I am currently in charge of editing and distributing his podcasts and radio shows, which span over huge audiences. Eventually, I will be travelling with them to different churches and meetings they go to. God opened the door, and I am elated, for there are few others who have hearts for the gospel as Ted and Carolyn Shuttlesworth. I have been blessed by them and their love.

—Three months ago, to the day, I began dating the most wonderful man I’ve ever known. In October of this past year, while praying, I had felt that Brandon and I were supposed to be together, but I told Jesus that if it was indeed His will, that it was to be orchestrated through Him—not me pursuing, but rather God speaking to him, and allowing things to take their course. And then five months later, He did…and the rest just fell into place. I have been beyond blessed by him, by his friendship, by his grace and patience that he unselfishly pours out onto me continuously. In such a short amount of time, he has changed and shaped so much of the way I think and believe, and I am crazy proud of him for serving God as whole-heartedly as he does. (And he’ll be in Maine in 12 days. Thank goodness gracious. The whole long-distance thing is not my most favorite.)

—Over the past few months, I have been recognizing that God has been preparing me to move. A month ago, a little less than, I realized that it’s not St. Louis, as I would prefer selfishly, but rather back to North Carolina, where I went last September, to attend a church pastored by wonderful friends and great spiritual leaders and role models. The decision is hard, coupled with overwhelmingly terrifying, since I don’t really know anyone down there, since it will be the first time I move, truly, to a place that’s essentially a continuous mystery. And yet, the resolve within myself is so great that I know it’s not from me. It’s what Jesus is asking me to do, and I can no longer just sit back and allow myself to be disobedient. It’s no longer an option for me. And so…within a month or so, I will be uprooting my life to move to North Carolina. Prayers would be exceptional.

God is good, faithful, perfect, and I am trying my hardest to focus on the truth about who He is, rather than what I believe I know about my circumstances. Circumstances change, but God is eternal in every way.

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"Your life is a mine of gems. Stop staring at the people who only see it as coal."
Annie Graham
Back, for the moment

The truth of the matter is that I like to have control, or at least the idea that I can control anything, something, little or large, and when reality crashes around me, that my desires and wants are selfish and human, I fall into the sea of Your grace, and it washes me new. There are times when I remember my failings and I try to push the grace off of me to uncover the dirt that once was there; but, like water, the more I push and dig to uncover what I once knew, the more grace splashes over things I didn’t even know were dirty, until finally, I am completely saturated. I am old, still scarred, yet clean from any dirt that could infect and prolong what needs to heal.

You do that. You see me, beginning to end, and the depth of Your love scares me and awes me, and makes me want to follow whatever path You lay before me; even paths that aren’t cleared. It’s not a matter of what or how I feel, looking at the forest ahead of me; it’s the knowledge that You have given me an ax that will cut through all boundaries into the unknown so that the trail of faith I plow and leave behind will make related decisions easier to walk through for those who come behind.

You come before. You come behind. You are all that You say You are. And I love the mysteries You unfold for me daily. I am not a vagabond without purpose, but Your daughter who has finally handed You the map, and trusts You when You say, “Turn left.”

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typographicverses:

But God shall supply all your needs according to his riches and glory in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:19). Designed by Shannon Hatch (@ShannonHatchNZ).

typographicverses:

But God shall supply all your needs according to his riches and glory in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:19). Designed by Shannon Hatch (@ShannonHatchNZ).

Confusion doesn’t come from the Lord. It comes from our lack of trust in His goodness, in His provision…and it’s in our lack of trust that the Devil completely warps it in our mind to cause us to believe that He’s anything less than completely perfect and sovereign. 

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My youth kids love me.And I, in turn, them. 

My youth kids love me.
And I, in turn, them.